My Page 15 or one thing i will mourn for the rest of my life

Normally I used to be a person who always is over-confident and never regrets for thing I have done in life because I always think twice before I do something important. Normally two questions "You really want to do that?" and "are you sure?” But this one even I had known her for three years, things worked so fast like a flash in the sky that I don't have the time to do what I wanted. Or may be that is my cowardy that failed me and I will sober for the rest of my life.

Did I was talkative? I know you are getting impatient so I will start my story. It was just an ordinary story which will be normal for most people. But I write this because I hope that this will ease up my pain. I had known her through some of my friends cos she is their classmates. She is a person who is bright, good-looking, and smart and also excels in studies. May be it is fate that I met her and lose her unexpectedly. She is normally a No-Man Island because she is too smart for man to like her or may be too scary for men which is also my first thought when I met her too. You will now confuse how my passion for her started because I forget to tell you my passion for females. When you heard this some of you may laugh, some laugh at and some gossip because I normally like ladies who are not girly or should I say tom-boy typed actually. She is actually one of that kind. Even though she looks feminine in external appearance, she is so manly in inside.

Funny thing is that I have never been to places with her. All we did was sit down and talk at the living room of her hostel. Normally, we had so many things to talk about and she is so intelligent and has much knowledge that I found someone like her only 5 years after we parted. I used to go to her hostel three times a week that some of my friends who used to accompany me started to tell me “they would soon be kicked out of the house” because I normally went there between 7 and 10 PM. Sometimes I went there in the evening on my way back from school.

Once Peter Parker in Spider Man said ”all my life I always wanted to say I love you” but He actually said “I will be there for you every time you need me as a friend” which is also what I wrote in her book. Actually she is like a goddess to me and so holy that I had no desires or anything than to be near to her and hear her voice. May be that was my fault that which made us apart. But I thought should I tell her or not and the answer was that she have been trying to fly high and if I did that I will become a obstacle to her progression to her goals for life. But you may want to ask why I am regretting now and saying this and my answer for this is because I can’t help it………

Missing our evening and remembering things you said to me………..